Dilema si pemakai hijab dan baju pengantin

I know this topic will create a stir.. (owhhh..what an introduction..)

Ya, it will create a stir because im touching on an issue that is very sensitive..private (maybe) and its related to religion..but i have this "mual" in my stomach and i need to vomit it out..ok, im not qualified to be 'calon-calon wanita muslimah'..first, im not wearing the hijab as what other muslim women do..i have my own reason why..i dont have to mention it here as that will not just creating a stir but a tsunami..i just name 1 reason, rather a principle to me ~ I believe in doing thing with ikhlas & tulus..not to fit in or 'to show'..and i believe in 'hati yang bersih'..everything comes from the heart not from how we look

I was called tO write on this topic after i saw a wedding pictures of someone that i know. she just got married and happy..lalalalala..

Her everday look is with hijab..covering herself top to toe..muslimah ~ calon-calon nya ialah...jeng jeng jeng..yes..she can be the calon..the family is also known as the 'mereka yang alim alim belaka'..what become an issue here is she posted her pre-weddng pictures in Facebook & her blog..well, everyone does that..its a happy day right..BUT..her pre-wedding
pictures were taken during a holiday of her & her fiance (belum kawin yer..)..shocked &
surprised..in one of her album, she is wearing a tiub dress that exposing the upper part of her body..no hijab (of course lah..) and gambar touching touching with her not-yet-husband

My question is, is she allowed to do that because it is her wedding day? Is she allowed to touch a man (touch is a more gentle word to describe the act of hugging, cuddlng dan yang sewaktu dengan nya) who is her husband to be? Is it ok for a woman who wear hijab to take it off..wear revealing dress because she is getting married? I mean, for orang yang tidak alim
like me, i still have that subconcious mind to think taht such acts are not right..well..perhaps i still can consider that as ok if they keep it as 'for our eyes only'..but not for the whole universe to observe

I may be a penyibuk..what do i know..why do i care..me myself is not wearing hijab..im not perfect myself..jangan jaga tepi kain orang..well, kalau kain disimpan elok, saya tak jaga..kalau kasi saya tengok..saya akan tengok, evaluate & analyse..i would rather be myself..look like who i am now..tapi tidak sekali kali memperlekehkan diri sendiri & agama hanya atas sebab sebuah album perkahwinan..

As for me, when the time comes for me to wear hijab..i want to be ready..mentally, spiritually & physically..with ketetapan iman serta diperlihara tingkah laku agar tidak menjadi momokan orang..

Forgive me for being vocal..but..i can only describe it in one sentence ~ "what a shame"

Proposal proposal proposal...

Yup..proposal...in UiTM system, we are given 1 semester just to prepare our proposal..then we need to defense our proposal in the main campus Shah Alam..my defense is scheduled to be in February...hukhukhuk....cry looooo..die die

I have done mine about 90%...great??? Hmm...dont praise me yet..im still in doublt..it cannot be this easy. Some of our fellow phd student took 2-3 semesters to complete their proposal. After 2 - 3 times defending, only then the proposal is accepted..it cannot be this easy for me..it is impossible that i can do it as easy as this while my friends are tergoleng-goleng fell off their chair doing theirs..

Will be meeting my 2nd supervisor a day after tomorrow and have a discussion on my proposal..he didnt give me any feedback since he received it last week...wuhuhuhu...m freaking out here..he is my second supervisor..once he confirmed that my work is acceptable..then i will send it to my main supervisor who is known with her strictness..heartless..'pengempang'..'aku peduli apa' probably her tagline..but quality is her highest priority..that is the reason why my husband send me to her..for her to squeeze & renyuk..hehe..no lah..so that i can get a quality phd

I pray that my proposal is ok..at least my idea can be accepted..other amendments can be done as long as its not a complete rubbish..